You need to become a baby again, and I mean that as an instruction, not a compliment. I have four kids, and all of them started standing around ten months old. Other kids, I don't know. Twelve months, nine months, eight months. Mine, ten. They stand, and boom, they hit their head. They cry as if the world is ending. Three minutes later they stand up again. They try it again. Head on the floor again. Repeat the process.
Now you. You fell once in an interview, and they treated you like a piece of crap, and you felt miserable, and you still haven't applied again.
The baby is up in three minutes. You're still down. What does the baby have that you don't?
Nothing. It has less. The fall from three minutes ago is gone. No memory at all. God could have designed our brain differently. Some animals run right after they're born. A new horse stands and runs. We could have been like that too. Instead our brain is built so that as a kid, when you fall, you cry as if you're suffering so much, and one minute later everything is gone.
Now imagine one of my kids had your memory, a full working memory of the last fall. Angle, geometry, gravity, all these objects. Strategic analysis and calculation. Last time I got up I hit my head, so I must not fail again. Out of strategic analysis and planning and out of having a fear of failure, ninety-nine percent of the kids will never get up again and walk. We would all be reptiles. Isn't it amazing that God created us in such a way that as a baby you don't remember when you get hurt? That is why you walk.
So go back. Learn from babies. You're going to fail. You're going to go to an interview and they're going to treat you like a piece of crap. Somebody is going to tell you, now you're going to learn coding, the way people say it. We get rejection in life. If you have fear against failure, you will never be able to accomplish anything, exactly like the baby who could remember would never be able to walk.